when happiness goes over sadness wahaha

today started off tiredly D;
cause only have less then 6 hours of sleep
something happen which sinked me in into deep thoughts again
but the meetup with the girls at night cheered me up ^_^
BUT SUAY SUAY MY PHONE DIED AT NIGHT
no pictures !*@&^#@!
the only options is to kope from their blogs le hehehe...

today my food menu very fong fu.

sugarloaf main course + desserts
gotten free soup from mensa western aunty as there's not enough soup to sell as a bowl
wahahha the aunty dam good.
at night went to timbre
spent my whole week savings there LOL
the only regret is the lychee martini,
was hoping for some sweet sweet drinks, end up eeyer LOL
bu hao he de.

scroll around, had rocher tauhuey wakaka
brought egg tarts home for tomorrow breakfast ~


i don't like to compare this type of stuffs, but really, just because some people did not voice out
does not mean that they are not experiencing the same thing which others are undergoing it.
i not sure what you really meant,
but the feeling of comparison is so strong the moment you said that sentence.

not sure if i took it too personally, but it just felt so dreadful to go for training tomorrow.
everybody only manage to see that small black dot in the white paper.
feel so sad so much now :[

went to zhit house to do work just now :D

at bus stop going home :D

& visit tyki at the same time ^_^

(koped from zhit's blog) 

& didn't go for training today as i could not finish my work );

only managed to finsihed it not long ago.. 

finally packed finsih my things..time to sleep yo.

tomorrow 9am lessons.

whole day spent on projects & some times spent with zhit <3 

this tattoo looks dam nicee

always likes dandelion tattoos wahahahha

but papa mama confirm don allow.

went to check on UV ones cause it is not visible but realise the tattoo will be in blood colour when finished

takes a few weeks before  it is gone.

so no point LOL, also will get slaughtered.

maybe when i get older.. wahahhaa

project todayy & off day tomorrow ^_^

initial plan was to go cdac at night

end up fell asleep & woke up too late 

so... stay at home instead ;x

shall rest today, start doing work tomorrow wahahahaa

byebyeeee xD

idiot zhehao keep hacking my account !! grrrrrrrr

busy daysss
forgot what i did already actually LOL
only remember we went to support the fusion percussion & chungcheng high 24 festive drums for Drumzout after training

on bus with vivian ~

rushed off after seeing the 2nd round of chung cheng performances.

helped the guy to carry the gu jia back to the holding area also :D

he jialat, one person need keep & move back so many gu jias

so lent my round hand wahahha

saw ying's ex bf with his new gf

was thinking why the guy like so suspicious

tried to peek him a few times but he just keep his head low all the way during the times i ghey ghey turn back  LOL.

really is no use haiss

rushed to derek bd :D

reached home the next morning then realised we should have take a pic of the old cdac peeps ):

childhood friends somemore nan de everybody around

gahhh most of us busy playing T_T

drank abit & mj though i drunk LOL

not drunk, just too tired only ^_^

cabbed back to sengkang the next day

& managed to catch jiamin's performance :D

lack of sleep ahhhh lack of sleep.

 dam tired ever since school started T_T

OHYEAHHH I ATTENDED THE CCA AWARD CEREMONY 2012 TOO 22JUNE ;D

muahahha NIGHTS

met hh for dining task yesteday
went to sign contract & collect pay
go back to school to catch "Ding Tao" with salvos
met yufen felicia jason yesterday for supper
wanted stay till late, but my pa call me & disbelieve me
i admit i lied but the fear of facing all the shyt..
i went home early
feel so bad to jason & yufen
sorry );

so tired. i wan sleep sooon
projects FNB END SOON !!!!
& still gt dpd indiavidual haven really start
omggggggggg

back to Klang for papa side cousins wedding :D 

they say her nose and eyes look like mine when im young hehehe

that day de weather really is killer LOL.

zoom zoom fast eye make up by my cousin's friend.

& pei en ^_^

the toy that was given by my papa 10 years ago.

got one more white colour de hehe, used to hug it sometimes before i sleep

my cousin's daughter still hug it till now :B

<3<3<3 

food that i helped in preparing wahaha

hehhe it was fun going back again

although its been..11 years LOL.

felt more comfortable there as compared to my mama side of relative.

like, i can be myself :B

don't know why my mama don like them ): she still forbid me to go to my aunt foster daughter wedding in oct !*@&^#!

always feel judged by my mama sides cause of the selfish act my mother did to her sister in the past years ):

BUT IM NOT MY MOTHER !! D:<

feel so dam tired and blur now after all the projects.
don't know what i doing. keep forgetting alot of things
& think i might deleted the wrong pic while deleting zinc pic of me at her phone ._.
cause she almost saw it liao so i fast fast chop chop
hope didn't delete anything ):

also forgotten that i took marcus unglam pic using jh's phone
then i still dare to comment that he deleted it cause he's the only one who have a hold to my phone after that.
so guilty now ):

how to sleep, with so many guilty.

abcedfuguuuuuuuqrstuvwxyz

i know you can't wait to leave this family
but you just left the family like that, with 2 parents quarreling everytime.
they are both reaching their geng nian qi also leh.
you can't just leave it to me to face all this problem alone.

how many times i have to reach home early
how many times i can't go out cause im worried about their quarrel
how many times i faced the same single shit every time i reach home

& nice, it's father day yesterday and i heard you called pa & said your at ikea.
THEN DON'T KNOW HOW TO COME HOME ONE MEH.
pa called you the minute we reached singapore in early afternoon.
you don't know how to auto abit to come home ?
27 direct bus don't know how to take, stay there & celebrate it with your wife father instead of your own.
you should see the expression in their face when everytime they tell me "kor kor gang gang you hui lai"

you have 2 off on sundays from what i see.
why only VISIT papa and mama when your gf family is at compass point shopping ?
why not come back on sat night or sunday morning to stay.
i not sure what you trying to tell us, but it just give me the feeling that you jumped over there cause the grass there is greener.
leaving me to deal with all this shit.
yes, your 28 this year & need your freedom
I NEED MINE ALSO DUDE -.-
i can't always accompany papa and mama at home cause im having my own commitment.
when ever i stay out late, papa will go drinking, leaving mama at home.
she having a more serious geng nian qi now, their quarrel sometimes can get so jialat that i so scare she got depression.
please, your my brother.
why are you much more selfish than all my friends.

they having their geng nian qi already.
come home and stay will you ?
i don't want to face this alone.

you may call me and scold me again if you saw this.
but, i don't care.


i want to save myself from all this shit as much as how dearly you wish to break yourself off from here.

so tired and so many things to do sighs
will blog more about the wedding trip next time
& jh birthday too.

12 hours of project today with peiling.
the rest left at late evening due to something on.
amanda not feeling well too..get well soon k ^^
hopefully can finish editing most of it tomorrow with the help of her <3
reached home, upload photos. sleep.
-pooooooooof-

一个肚子痛死我的早晨

reached in school early with hh
so decided to cam hehe
sheila wasn't here today..
so yup abit lost and side track for mice LOLOL
stomach pain until i cant think properly
almost pain si wo when i on the way back to sk with hh.
only want to find a place to let my pigu rest and let me press my stomach.

went to polyclinic for the strange hand marks on my hand.
took number and went to transfer $$ to bev for present
then go back &i miss my number already.
i remember there are 6 person before me
how come can within 15mins done already LOL
then i go in..
woah that indian doctor hor, die die insist i stratch myself
if i scratch myself how would i not know -.-
problem is the mark got no pain,no itch, no feeling
but there's something inside.
then ok, i nothing to say -_-"
go down..then $10.20 fly
hais my lunch and dinner money.
i rather donate the $10.20 to charity than given to the polyclinic.
if i know it myself is scratches why will i even go to see doctor.

reached home at 4, watched inuyasha MUAHAHAHAH
until 6 and project till now..
my stomach also pain till now..

痛死我了

yesterday
had dry run for camp yesterday after training muahaha

ended around 4pm++ before going home to nomnom dinner.
at night met derek to do his bd cake thing after dinner with papa mama
but peiling's papa off work liao ):
so decided to contact her papa straight instead ^^
met ziying after that at nex to walk walk
saw this very cute rabbit hehehe

don siao siao, this rabbit $910 hor.
$$$$$$$$$$$
kan bu chu hor LOL.
went cotton on after that, which is a wrong choice..
spent $20 on 2 tops ): this time is my bank money got attacked.
reached home & watched the eye wahahaha
scary leh hehe. so long chn 5 no horror liao.

today
today is work dayyyyy

heh we also got this day where can wear tee shirt for banquet

not so good luh, actually is no more uniform LOL
so we need to wear this till the uniform are all washed.
so many new faces today
or maybe is because i 3 months never go back liao LOL
so long didn't saw xiuzhen also D;
today the worker is too many already, until 1 person 1 table
until too many people where they don have enough pay to distribute to us -.-
had to go back another day to collect.
wanted to use it to buy my father's day present
but now cannot liao
~~*&!*@(#&@!(*#@!

reached home at 630, did my projects till 1030.
only rested 15mins to eat dinner ):
going to try and finish up the whole fnb report with appendix after this post.

i swear i'll never trust people that much again.
i don't like the feeling of the outcome.
it's been the second time i feel that im been sacrificed D;

i must check the work before i sent next time.
feel so guilty to sheila
D;





i felt like i being judged till so jialat.
the feeling so strong, i don't like.
is not my part that has the most error
but we decided to split some of the parts, done, combined it and sent together.
so i've became part of it also );

found this pic at qiuyi instagram wahahha
one pic per post, keep me to blog everyday ^_^

changed my blog skin,
byebyee toy robot
hihi dandelion ^_^
wanted put starry star flower, but can't find any nice background

anyway i cut my fringe if you all realised.
I CUTTED MYSELF WAHAHAHHA
*level of achievement high*
first time succeed, after 3 past failures
muahahaha

today had a day out with wenjie qiuyi <3<3

wjyqy

Had pasta mania for lunch before heading for bugis
reached there at around 230
but felt like we shop for awhile only
then wj & me see the clock : 530 !!
didn't know we shop for so long sia LOL

qiuyi bought her 3 tops
wenjie finally bought her HW black pants
i finally bough my highwaist black pants also wahahha
but bought a waterfall skirt too for only $10 :B
its light turquoise in colour , something unique from others.
wanted buy wine colour at first.
but hor dunno why the wine colour, expose to light will become red
then become like those wear le going drop building that colour.
so decided on turquoise instead hehe. lucky wenjie was with me to give me guidance.
going to wear it for my cousin wedding next week in KL ^^
bought a top also, finally something no collar & no need wearing extra clothing.

all my loots are only at $10 each, other than the pants $15.
total up ---> $35 for 3 items kekeke.
and of that $35, $29 is what i saved from this week
touched my bank $6 hehe.
but at least it's not alot :D

love times like this, projects and outings all in the morning-afternoon
night i can spend at home to eat with my papa mama.
after which i can go cdac and continue my projects at night.
& MY PAPA CANNOT GO DRINKING WHEN IM AT HOME/CDAC MUAHAHAH >:D


tooooooodles -wavewave

Went to huihui house for projects today.
quite productives hehee
manage to finish all the parts sheila allocated to us yesterday.
& we 2 are from the same kampong !!
so qiao right ^_^
her ahma know my papa side of family
including my ahgong as well
who passed away when my father was mmm 12 ?
my ahma pass away dam young.
);
wish i have grand parents sometimes.

met derek to help with his cake
saw alot of people also ^^
went home after that to finish up my f&b
sew my bag also HEHEHE
cause it spoilt during the bintan trip
not going to buy new one, siao ah, the bag havent even 2 months sia.
sew & its new again mauhahahaha

going sleep now ~ wanted to apel but i cannot find the assignment online.
BYEEEE !!

trying hard to combine all the photo in the frames but the programme don allow me to do so ):

\

trimmed my eyebrow today with peiling :D

got difference ? heh heh

this one abit nightmare
the 1st person trimmed, woo half fail
one long one short
one up one down
-face palm-
go back trying to pu jiu
& the another person manage to did it :D
she told me to let my eyebrows grow...
which will take sometimes.
hais ):

met hh & went to school for projects just now.
finally started on mice, on track.
dpd, trying to be on track, but its hard with my teacher lao pok pok .
lodging, not touching yet soon LOL.
our group chionged until almost finished for f&b since the 1st week
& heck care for other 3 projects
until today we really touched on mice, which is due on july 1st week LOL.
jiayous jiayous
wo menke yi de
going hh house to do more projects tomorrow
productivity pewpewpew.
& i think i need to bring laptop to camp next week le D;
must finish the project asap.

posted the bintan trip asap
cause i do not wish to forget about anything from this trip
^^

nights nights :D
early sleep, finally a time for me to recuperate muahahah

BINTAN ! day 2 & 3~

Woke up at 5am to see the sunrise in the morning 

but the wind was too thick to see anything ):

but nevermind, its the company that matters to me ^^

the chicken near the resturant :D it will cok cok gheyy like siao in the morning.

the breakfast is simple but dam nice :D

went for the mangrove tour in the day time after that

i was hoping to see snakes mating ):

not i pervert but cause i never see before.

:[

but end up don have..

kind of creepy there but i like :D

the family & the animals there :D

Visit to Nirwana resort after that for some rifle shooting & archery :D

my skills not very bad yo

manage to hit some place which its impossible to reach by others. 

after that we went to pasar oleh oleh which was a...

disappointment ):

but the nice uncle drove us to eat nice nasi padang after that ^_^

prepared for our bbq at night

went for massaging ~~

WOOHOOOO

first time massage, dam funny

the massager suddenly poke my 2 times

i look at her, she look at me, we laugh

they keep laugh at me

then i keep laughing cause very itchy LOL

slept that night peacefully.

slept with the hotness also cause i think im the only one who experienced it.

felt that i sweat like crazy also cause im sick );

Last day ):

went to banana boat in the morning

IS DAM FUN !! HEHEHE

the ship bouncy de

boink boink boink

wooooooooooooooooo

dropped into the sea 3 times

injured my chin & jh injured her head

cause i dunno how we fell,

my chin & her head hit each other.

magicccc~ 

but the injury its the best of the worst already

cayse i heard from marshall, chin is easy to split.

went back to bath

& go shop abit

nothing much to buy..except the $2 perfume ;x

the thing more or less similar to sg one so yup.

went back to change & prepared for snorkeling after that :D

but suay suay that time i fever -_-

ate panadol before going for snorkeling hehe.

scary experience..

cause actually im dam scare of being in the sea ;x

feel very insecure, not sure if it's my panadol which caused me to be so tired

or i really feel insecure LOL

came up early with cy hehe.

thats the last activities already, went back to pack & go off );

the payment time dam scary..

cause i didn't know the $75 doesn't include transport

so i tot i brought S$150 it was enough already

but noooooooooo

i ended up borrowing $70 from cy.

felt dam guilty after that.

they could have cabbed home with that amount of money

);

felt dam dam tired on the way back to board the ship

& in shock LOL. the driver drove dam fast.

slept thru the ferry & woke up early for projects the next day ):

3 days of fun ended & its back to reality ~

i will remember this trip forever hehe.

it's my 1st official trip with friends afterall

^^ 

byebyee ! 

BINTANNN~ day 1!

went on a bintan trip with salvo grads from 2th June - 4th June :D

it was funnnn

thanks cy for the planning <3

Day 1

Met vivi cy & jh to buy bbq food to bring to bintan :D

cause heard from reviews the food there are not very fresh so yup.

but we made wrong choice

cause there's one store that sell super super nice & cheap bbq food

met the rest & board the ship aftre that.

first time taking ferry, dam shiok (Y)!!!

but too bad we cant stand outside ):

reached the resort not long & took some pic. 

i forgot to take my room picture oops :X 

the dog that bark at us every time we walk pass.

Rested awhile at the room & pack up to go eat lunch WOOHOOO

the food is dam nice

but the price of it also dam nice.

one fish $45. but i must admit it's very fresh luh.

& the chicken, woolala de shiok HEHEE.

wanted to cycle around after that, but the cycle wobbly wobbly.

jh & V also learnt not long ago, so we decided not to cycle in case.

& we went to play volleyball !! HEHE

using soccerball LOL.

its dam pain but quite shiok la ~ :D

i cant really remember what we did after that..brain block :{

meet up at 7.30pm again to prepare & go mangrove tour !!! 

didn't took any pictures cause too dark D;

BUTTT I SAW FIREFLY !!!

normally we see the tv all very big one right

the real size is only around 1 cm LOL

small but significant !!

it's quite hard for us to see cause the moon is super bright that night.

we saw shooting stars also, didn't make a wish cause i heard the uncle say is aeroplane

while the rest of the girls all made the wish.

):

nevermind, at least i saw it :DDD

went to the super nice bbq place to eat after that ^_^

the name of the shop :DD the uncle there super good

we offered tips but he rejected it. 

 heheh forgot to take the before pic so yup.. give you all after de pic ;x

 the milo there :D its dam sweet but dam nice.

i heard their tea dam nice also. didn't manage to try it cause i still wanna sleep that night de LOL

went back around 11+ & slept that night.

&..drama happens.. ;x

woke v up in the middle of the night 3am 

cause it was too hot & i cant find the aircon controller (when it is infront of me -.-)

sorry vivian ): 

but luckily rh was listening earpiece.

if not i think i will wake the whole room up.