i think it still haunt me sometimes.

BUT WHY NOW !@*(#&!@*(&#*(@!

hosp todae :D

appointment dragged 2hrs ._.
heng i gt bring commskill hehe
& story book :D

gt one shushu @ there !@)(*#(@! the nurse LOL
he sae..
" my appointment 10.55, i reached @ 10.30. now 12.15, 1 hr + plus oredi when will it be my turn?!"
nurse : " sorry there are patients whu take a longer timing
uncle : "tats ur problem oredi"

LOL then i see when they asking patients go forbreak first
they dun dare ask tt uncle
LOL

kk nitesss :D
the eye solution they dip earlier make my eye feel very strange LOL

proj test proj test );
study & maple & study & maple LOL

sorry ying for tml x.x
wanted to meet u end up i cancel it sorry ><

good luck for iht test :D
byeeeee xD

AHHH
friday nite shud be playing mode
now is 1/2studying mode
AHHHHH!!!!
my fridae !@)#*!@()*#!@

bought a new earpiece todae :D
cos my one si qiaoqiao oredi ):

the colour very nice xD
very cheap oso :B

---then i listen..---
:D the sound quite good LOL
^^ after so mani songs played ..

---Currently playing : Thanks for the memories---

^^ ( starting)
._. (chorus)
-_- (half way throught chorus)
(!@*&#(*@!& ( lower volume)

good for normal volume
bt not very good for 3/4-full volume user ):

WOO TML NO LECTURE LOL
BEYBYEEEE!! XD

tired tired );
!()@*#()!@*)#*(!@#@!
i happy happy dl maple for 1hr le
then left 5%
i click the private server thing..
another 1hr++ dl came out
then i cancel it..
end up i cancel away the 95% de downloading
then i press resume..

another 1hr15mins
then i press pause & start it again...
1day17hrs
-___________-

redling it tml hoho
nites :D

ant bite my face when i sleeping T_T


-tuesday 10.17pm-
I STIL DOWNLOADING MAPLE !@(#!@#(
AFTER THE 4 TIME
UGH
1 time is ytd
2nd time i dl
then i realise is different maple
3rd time i dl, the FF suddenly hang @()#*
then suddenly download finish.
tried to install bt then sae error LOL
redl for the 4th time
:D
study time LOL

chop one post for todae :D
post tml :D

my freedom teeth borning
feel like i gt one bogay @ the back of my teeth
LOL
!@)#&!@*#!@

yesterday
salvo outing hehehe

meet @ yishun :D
fly to zoo
teleported here & there
i onli can remember we saw monkey niaoniao LOL
LIKE RAIN LIKE TT LOL.
@ nite dabao food and went chiawei hse
cabbed to punggol with shiyun & zhixiong.
wait bus
reach home
bath & die
LOL

wooohooo!!!

rainining hohohoho time to lseep LOL
tml presentation );
good luck everybody xD

hehhe todae is fun :D
post tml :D
i cannot remmeber anything now LOL

i onli rmemeber we cabbed home :D
if nt i tink now just reach home LOL
hohohohoh
byeeeeeee <3

:D

die addicted to transformice LOL
YAY!! TML :BBBBBBBBB

Love come unseen but we only see it go

saw this somewhere
quite true :D

& i hope laomao is ok );
ever since the super loud meow meow i heard at 1am+ 3weeks ago
i never saw her oredi );
somehow gt a feeling is her meow. ~_~
hope she is ok );
i cant find her anywhere


);
die i cant study UGH!!!
WO0O0O TML HEHEHEHEH

morning wake up @ 7am
brush teeth wash face
nt feeling welll ):
so i went to lied on bed...
&...

i dun have the energy to get up ._.
heng smse joanne & qiuyi in time
:B
= 7am wake, brush teeth&washface, go back sleep again LOL

dreamt of 2 dreams within 2 hrs LOL
not a good one bah :o
dreamt of someone smsing me
somemore the surrounding is same to the one i sleeping in LOL
feel so happy
end up i wake up then realise is dream -_-
& went back sleep again LOL
the other one i forgot ~_~
bt is about the same person.

wake up @ 9am++
feeling better hoho
fly to take bus :D
scare i reach school too early so i went into the interchange to take bus LOL
& i din get to see my fb fun test result hehehe
good thing :D

practice the skit thing :D
quite fun LOL

hehehe
LOL I PLAY TRANSFORMICE UNTILVERY HEYPI LOL

hungry emo. heypi sad. sleepy. headache

drinkdrankdrunk
singsangsung
PINGPONGPIANG!

you got what you want in the midst of hurting others.
very go0o0o0d uh LOL.

UGH!!!


--edited thursdae 7pm-
i dunno wat am i posting yesterdae -_-
no care this post. LOL

talked to mirror todae.
for tml presentatoin LOL


ugh.

UGHHHHHH EMO.

& yea, get well soon :D

Grass ring :) nov 2009 - 18feb 2010
Stainless ring - 19feb till 24 may 2010

i still love the grass ring .
it contain more of the happy memories :)

I should have realise it when i saw the posts.
i was stupid not to realise it.
i was stupid not to hold on to you tightly.
i was stupid to let you go.
how i wish i can restart everything.
how i wish i was given one more chance.
instead of a death sentence.

now, i can only stand at a corner, watching you drift away from me.


If you want it back, it will be back.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARC :D

:D todae school is normal
^^
salvo @ nite was fun
:D

just now suppose to go pasir ris.
zzzz then i dam scare i saw them
not i scare them
is i dunno how to react LOL
sae hi?
wave hiehiehiehieee
or just ignore LOl.
i now allergy to botak with black spects together with middle hair long girl on weekend.

then suddenly my mama sae..
or we change bus go tamp
WOAH SHIOK LOL
took 39 :D
woah !! alot cars sia LOL
those car like never see before de LOL
gt one transform the shape until like lambo like tt LOL.

ate :D & bought bag
cos my bag dying le );
my bag de criteria : 一定要好抱
then bought it from zinc
then hug...
不好抱的！！！！
!@*(#&*(!@&#(!@&#*(!@&#*(!@&#*(!@@#

)))))))))))))))))))):
home :D

my tagboard si qiaoqiao cannot see tag );
sorry no reply todae );
LOVE LER :D

too bored
sorry laptop.
laomao !! last week :D
she din eat the food i buy for her ):
tink someone fed her ~_~
gave her food to white mao
then laomao like nt heypi. ._.
nbm, cannot waste food LOl
nxt time dun buy ocean fish for her oredi.
!(@*&#*@!
laomao playing with grass :D

stitch :D
on derek birthday tt time saw de :D

heard laomao meow until super loud last sun @ 1am++ ._.
might nt be her :D
bt hope she's ok ):
i never see her ever since.

-the top post posted @ 5.12pm-
i lazy shift the picture downwards
HOHO LOL

-posted @ 11.15am-
i.miss.doraemon.again -_____-
heng i wake up in time for the drum show
hohohohohoho
kk brb LOL

drowsy ~_~

peeked your past notes on fb
idk where i get the bull courage from..
LOl.
be together forever.

wo0o0oh0o0o0o0o0o
i gt a lovely brother :D

yesterday, i ask him to lend me the earpiece i lent him because mine was spoiled
then he offered to help me fix the earpiece
& i was so heypi
he helped me fixed
replaced the rubber(cos the rubber disappear LOL) with another earpiece de rubber.
helped me stuff tissue inside the ear piece
helped me test out using hes psp.

& lastly..













he bring the earpiece with him to army.
leaving me with a earpiece
with no rubber.
*&!@3521#!@^#

just now went to woodland eat:D
bought sticker for my laptop :D
$1 onli eh!!!
:BBBBB

kk byebybeyebyebeybeeee :D

how i wish i can be the one who is counting down anxiously for your return every week.
but i don't even have the chance to wish.

do you still remember about the visit to USS after your first pay?
maybe you did, but i am not the one you going with already.


dai.
todae is emo day.
!*@&#@&#(!@*&#(!*&#!*(@

如果那是痛，那我在承受的是什么？


UGH!!!!!

^@#@#$*@&#*^@#@#$*@&#*^@#@#$*@&#*^@#@#$*@&#*^@#@#

nbm no emo.
shall go & read ler post :D
her post make me feel better.
not alittle, nt much
but ALOT
work like one xian dan like tt LOL
shall ss tt particular paragraph & put it as my wallpaper.
jk. LOL
but when ever i feel sad,
i shall read it :D
thks ler hohoho
& others too :D

emo night :D

found this on a video :D

The only reasons people hold on to memories so tight because memories are the only thing that won't change

true love is only when you shed a tear and still want him.
when he ignored you and you still love him.
when he loves another girl but you still smile and say "im happy for you"

Getting over him, or is it just getting over the pain?

Love is not when the heart beat faster or fastest,
But when the heart beats no more the love is still there.

You know what love is?
Love is like a favourite song
that you play over & over again
This one song makes you happy, sad and angry
Even then, you still press "repeat".

LOL I WANTED WRITE MORE
THEN TOK TO LER
SHE SAE ABOUT THE BURSTDAY THING
I DUN FEEL LIKE TYPING THIS POST OREDI
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
LOL

HAPPY BURST DAY!!!

LOLL!!
todae zhiting & huimin make me luff until !@$@#$ in commskil LOL
we toking about taiwan saying our english kns
then ..
we sae about them saying birthday as burstday

then zhiting sae..
by the time they sing finish happy burstday the person burst oredi.

LOL.

i tinking which food i offend again -________-

nites hohohoho
proj time :D

test todae :D
dun wish to sae le :\

todae heypi heypi :D
im going be ok le i tink :D

thanks for being there for me <3
sorry to worry you all :D
i can feel wo yao hao le hohoho

hehehee i realise the problem with my eyes le :D
this will give me a good good reason not to ); anymore hoho
if nt i might have it everynight oredi LOL
then i jiu siqiaoqiao le ):
nites :D!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAOTING :D

salvo todae was quite fun :D
left my wallet there ._.

to many of them:
thanks for being there when im down (;


everything is ok oredi.
dun disturb me again
when i never disturb you.
Lastly, last long with him
& dun bother about me anymore.
You said, love is free, free to love
:)

LOL ZHEHAO GIVE ME SEE A MC ROLL VIDEO
MAKE ME LUFF UNTIL NOW LOL

THENTHEN
I WAN TO UPLOAD IT ON BLOGGER
THN THEY SAE CANNT UPLOAD DUE VIOLATION LOL
BT REALLI
VER FUNNY
LOLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THKS FOR MAKING ME LUFF LOL.
HAHAHAHAHHAHAH!!!!!

GO MY FB SEE !! MY FB DE LOL
HAHAHALMOA
LOLLOL
LOL
LOL

i tink maybe i will delele the below longlong post tml.
cos i noe that you _____( i gt spy hehehe >:})
but benefits me also hoho
i not broadcaster LOL
i don like to post my r/s stuff online.
& show it to everyone LOL
i post it cos of you :D
honoured bah !! hoho
i deleteing it cos of u oso :D!
hope u saw this message :D

i edit it oredi.

:)

once again, if there's anything you want to clarify with me
feel free to add me on msn
i will tell you about it :D!

kk i realise i type this paragraph @ the end of the longlong post too LOL

i realy need thanks zhehao for tt video LOL
althu u owis bully me
even tot i 3 years older than u
LOL

THE VIDEO MAKE ME SO HAPPY LOL.

by posting all this,
i paying a high price
a price of him not talking to me anymore.
but still, i rather things to be clear first.
(:

we are still friends :D!

i was healing from a blow for 1month.
I am very happy yesterday

cause i did not think of you at all .

But it did not last long.

Today 1am ,a blow came.
It become a double blow for me.
One more blow came at 2.01pm
It became a triple blow.

-edited--

not anymore LOL

Believes that he is now happily together with a girl.
& he no longer love you.

if only you didn't exist.
i wouldn't found out that he went out 3 times with you behind my back.
i wouldn't wait for 3 months seeing if he will tell me about it.
i kept it in me for 3 months,
till i really could not take it.

from the start until starting of march 2010
everytime we go out.
8/10, there's your message

" pator with gf?"
"ya"
"hais..nvm"

remember this message?
do you know the feeling of it?
this message always repeat in my mind.

you were almost everywhere during the times when we went out together.

do you know the feeling?
Bf going out with other girl .
Bf DID not say it.
i only found out when i read your blog.
do you know how devastated i feel?
i remember asking him
if he hid anything behind my back
he replied:
no.
After that, i started reading your archives.
Remember what you posted on 7/8/9
the day i & him got together?
Those small words
Those hidden letters.
i seen all of them.
Even though you deleted those posts, it was too late.
i had seen everything.
& all those words, are always in my mind.

remember the first 3 months, i compromised with him
i beared all the unhappiness.
but i couldn't take it after that
due to the stress.

He did not allow me go out with purely guys
and i did not.
i always tried my best to ask him to go out with his friends.
cause i know it's unfair if i'm the only one going out.

i even declined half of my friends' outing too.

my attitude towards him changed after dec.
i admit this.
Things that are not suppose to be worse,
i made it worst.
i don't deny it.

i also started scolding him b____
after he started calling me a
_________ when we quarrelled.
you will never know the feeling of it.

at that point of time,
i was pissed.
what right did he have to scold me.

i get paranoid easily after dec
cause i was so afraid to lose him

i only told him about both of you going out behind my back in march.
but everything is too late.
i totally cannot get over it
i know it's not your fault
but you should get things right.

and lastly,
i did thank him for many of the things he had done for me.
i appreciated everthing alot, even if i didn't say it.( i did tell him this.)
just like the times,
when he appreciate it when i took a 1hr30min bus ride to clementi
just to take bus home with him
hoping he wouldnt feel lonely.

but remember, sometimes he left me feeling unappreciated too.

i remember telling him to say sorry for some lame things
he did told me something like this
"so close oredi sae sorry and ty for wat."

he only tell me about losing his feelings after things cannot be help
i did lost my feelings last time,
so i thought it's only temporary
just like how i will lose my feelings too.

there're alot of things i wanted to say.
i swear i can write a few pages of what i want to tell you.

There're times when i lost feelings
i gave him the chances to win it back.
So why was i given the death sentence when he lost feelings for the first time?

please get things straight before
you criticize me in any ways.

You can always clarify things you want to know with me on msn.
i believe, you , being a girl,
will be able to understand my feelings.:)

i not a broadcaster.
LOL

hehehe lucky i din hold the drum stick probably LOL
if not i jiu realli si qiaoqiao le LOL

hehehe lucky i din hold the drum stick probably LOL
if not i jiu realli si qiaoqiao le LOL

A & B used to be together
One day
A, feeling bored, she went to stalk people blog
& found out something from a girl blog without A knowing.
A beared, seeing if B will say out
after three months, no valid
unbearable, A go asked B
trying to break
B do not allowed.
A could not get over the matter
finally, she suceeded in breaking up.
but still, she still got feelings
A break up not because of no feelings, but because of what he can't be truthful.

& now
it seems that 80% chances B and that girl got together.

got it from a website.
wadafuck is this.
Fuck A's life.

morning went to find zhiting & rachel for project :D
we do the survey :D
after tt went home eat :D
& go buy formal with joanne & qiuyi <3
after tt walkwalk around & home hohohoho

i tot will be lesser then $100 T_T
end up.. -__-
*&!^@#&^@&*#^&*@#$^@&*#$@#

i saw a "leaf" todae
LOL.

kk byeeeeeeeeee :D

need a place to shout before i can smile again ):

todae went to ave8 with mj :D
the rest is proj LOL
watched The ring LOL
ver nicee hehehhe
althu is 1998 LOL

watching money nt enough 2 now :D
very sad ._.
T_T
kk byeeee :D

:D
now i strting to feel the stress ._.
went home with joanne todae :D
take mani mani with her camera xD

reached home & coollate :D
finally finish after 4hrs LOL
can rest for awihle le :B

somehow..
i wish i can see my ahgong ahma gong gong x.x
& my popo ( i see her for around less then 10 times ): )

-editediteditedit- LOL
dunno y my post end up so sad oso LOL

& when i hunt my bag..
i peek inside my bag..
& i realise that..
i forgot give my mc !)@(#*!)(@*#)@(!*#()@!*#(@!#^&@!*^#&@!%#^&@%!&^#%@#@!
the 5th/6th mc of the sems LOL.