3 more days to end of 2015 !!
Time to set new goals and reflect what i've did for 2014

Study
In 2014, i must admit i'm too chiong for studies till i going @_@
i don't know why also LOL
My whole life i never so chiong before
but once i step into uni, i keep having the urge to score for distinction.
Really dk what's wrong with me -_-
i ended up quitting school to work.
BUT the stress doesn't play a majority role in my decision
it's other factors which.... inconvenient to say here hehehe for you to guess -winks
and i regretted this decision that i've made.
I've learnt to relax myself afterwards and think for myself more.

Work
Thanks to my part time job, i've secured a full time position in another company opened by my boss :D
Really appreciate it as it was my first office job in my life LOL
I learnt a lot, really a lot
however, suffered a lot too.  (no pain no gain right? :D)
Initially i entered the office with only a minor role
but i carried my burning flame of striving for distinction in school to work.
i did everything as fast and perfect as i can.
because i can't understand "work is never ending in office"
but slowly, i started to take roles that are not my job scope
from a minor role, to taking care of the whole factory (+ all schedulings), doing secretarial roles, taking up HR basic task,  coordinating with sales staffs, sales coordinator for another sister company, participating in meetings and meetup with clients.
HOWEVER
I brought this up myself, cause i'll go around asking if anybody needs help when my task is done.
maybe that's why they feel my role quite slack and start piling up things for me :X

That's when my body starts to break down, severely.
i fell sick at least once every month. (most of them are actually high fever)
and i still went back to work cause somethings have to be passed down.
i do not have any assistants.
Slimmed down dam vigorously till now i can't get fat wtf rofl.
but i',m happy cause...
by the 3rd month, i have the support of all 20+ factory & logistic workers
my hard work paid off YAY !
my logistic skills level up to0o0o0o ~

The feeling of quitting only comes when they hired an executive (which suppose to be my superior)
but end up i have to guide him in every single thing and always clear the mess for him.
that's when i felt i'm truly being EATEN
this goes on for a period of time
& i left after the company 6th month woohoo.

But from then on,
I become a follower than someone with her own opinions.
i hate this zz i feel lost 90% of the time.
have being trying to put in effort and think logically of serious issues but something is just blocking it
I miss the feeling where i am able to make people laugh.

BACK TO STUDY LOL
Lucky i only defer my studies, not quit LOL
thanks to the staff who told me about the deferment system.
and yup, i found ways to relax myself more (:
& i only strive distinction for 1 subject
because that's the only events module i have T_T
the rest, pass can liao ~


GOALS FOR 2015
1) Be myself more, have my own opinion and better confidence,
Being a follower is causing me to lose that little bit of confidence i have
I MUST OVERCOME !!
2) Nurse my health back
The damage to my health is permanent since then.
even the stupid dust can cause me high fever.
body feeling weak ALL THE TIMES -_-
3) Finish up degree in a comfortable way 
4) Everybody be happy x3


2014 had been a year where i gained and lost a lot.
can't wait for it to end wooo.


Spending my last 3 days of 2014 nursing my health back.
kanna fever again for nothing after KXG meeting
-_-

Break up is the hardest thing to move on from.
Don't try to forget the memories, it stays on forever
live with it & it will make you a stronger person ^_^
(NO LA i haven't break up >< )
It's for my few good friends if you all are seeing this <3 p="">

Anyway i've decided to take a gap year even after i graduate.
During this year i'm going to do volunteer work and have fun
before i really embark on my work journey...grrr

And YESS!!
i've found a Chinese Dance studio in Chinatown
Been looking for it since ages ago.
but yupyup, here comes the dilemma.
Which passion to go for.

2014 is coming to an enddddd
love you all muackzx.


byebye !


abit abrupt LOL oops.

王詩安 Diana Wang - 愛存在 Love Still Exists (華納official 高畫質HD官方完整版MV)

this song is nice hehe

The awkward moment when i tried to ask for answers...

& the worst thing is i addressed her as Mr...

Really hope she wouldn't specially pick out my paper in Australia and mark

wo de tian

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Went out to throw rubbish in my pajamas

rate of bumping into neighbours: 0.000000001% / 100

then today...

i bumped into my closer neighbour but not close to the extend of comfortable friends

this timing always no people go out throw rubbish one !!

T_______________________T

scare me, for a moment i thought my blogs all gone
end up is wrong email -_-"

YAYYYYYYYYY
the assignments for the sem is finally over
now is just studying for exam & tadaaa
we are done (Y)
This sem passed super fast

and our achievement unlocked group projetcs >:D

ER (pic koped from pling :X)



EVENTS !!!


Really relieved when event's down man.
the chionging is really nightmare LOL
but it's the last time i'll be grouping with people i know le
will be alone for ODHRM next sem
omg.
diuuuu
SCARE
T_____________T


this sem passed fast
fun time passed even faster
T_T




i might sound kiam pa here
but i really wanna get fatter
:X


On the other hand..........,.,.,.,.,.,
*drum roll drum roll*
my dearest ah deh is going into army YAY
finally after so long.
will try to "identify" myself again during this period of time.

Been feeling very lost ever since getting attached
i feel like i can't differentiate between right and wrong anymore
just a floater floating around everywhere
i don't like sia omg
need someone who can give me the correct directions T_T


& on another bad note...KXG don't feels the same anymore :'(



hopefully is due to my feeling of lost.



hope everything will get better soon <3 p="">BYEE ~

small updates

 

FINALLY IM ABLE TO BLOG MUAHAHHA

been trying on this new lappy for quite awhile
but windows 8.1 is really hard to use :l

I've left my current job in GreatSolutions :l
frankly speaking I really quite she bu de.
Overall this 6 months of effort that I had put it.
But i'm really grateful to everybody there
wasn't easy at the start being somebody with 0 office experience.
as well as factory
really didn't expect that I will ended up managing a factory hohoho
Really thank you to the factory staffs who complied with my scheduling
drivers who gave me constructive comments on logistic planning
as well as my boss and jesse who aided me in factory planning.

& grateful to the office staff as well who provide me with so many opportunities to get expose to the FNB industry.

actually I feel more connected towards the factory side staffs heheheh
maybe cause we worked together.
but office I made good friends as well wee o wee.
so...its a fruitful takeaway from this 6months of full time coordinator.

 

omg I didn't realise my factory staffs picture not uploaded to fb ._.

miss my bus partner as well

 

 



Wanted to go back and help out with yoghurt place but they are really super over staff now due to the pay increment + school holiday
so...
i'll shall go and help out in my neighbourhood clinic >:D
WITH MEIJIEEE HEHEHE


KXG

we are finally down with our first official external performance at Singapore Swim Stars 2014 !!

                             
                                                                                YAY !

finally got some good rest after this week wahhaha
was worrying about quite a number of things
I know with the help of kal char cy and rh things will turn out fine
but i'm just worry don't know for what reason
really thankful that the lorry turns out well despite the different changes
WANSUI TO HELLO EXPRESS LOGISTIC ;D
and costumes have minimal problems despite that nobody actually ever wore the full set :X
with this 2 down...i'm finally.......... RELAXED :D




today <3 u="">

I WENT TO SUPPORT PAM FOR HER OPERA PERFORMANCE HEHEHE
really proud to say she's my friend :D :D
the AV was quite problematic as some of the performance doesn't have any sounds
which means the mic is off as well.
some performancers were quite panick, understsandable luh
people so nervous already then the sound doesn't work.
it happened to pam's perf too but ended up...she sang super loud that it can be heard from the last few rows,
wooohoOO!!!
but the instructor was really pissed with the AV team
teng teng tengteng !!!

                                
                                                                            PAM :DD

actually I snapped wrong person at starting of the show :X
they really look alike whahahahha
a lot of people says they got couple look despite being both girls LOL.
not bad, pam you can consider 2nd "husband" le >:D


 

Chit chat abit with jason liow and youfen just now
Gemini really very 痴情
which can be good and bad depending on situation.
Really hope he can let it go soon
jiayousssss
(ps. HEHE NAN DE CAN NIAM HIM ABIT SIBEI SHUANG XD )



really dread hearing _____ related news again...
still trying to "recover" from the loss.
just so sudden
Really have no feel to go training yesterday but still dragged myself to go
Feeling bad for my laoma as we can't go to the wake due to inaccessibility.
sigh.

but at least i'm able to get that off my mind for awhile due to training and zh's birthday

xixixi.

>:D

i'm getting a Microsoft Surface Pro 3 HEHEHE

my lappy is dying...sigh.

Serve le wo 5 years liao

good com yo ~~~

Although a lot of my friends faced problem with Fujitsu

I'm the quite heng one HEHEHEHE

Jingcong suggested to sell away my current laptop so can off set my cost abit

but i bu she de ):

Only manage to enjoy 3 months of full timer pay

& i going to spend all my saving on this + school fees

so...MUST DO SOME RESEARCH FIRST >:D

                                         

http://www.anandtech.com/show/8287/first-look-the-799-microsoft-surface-pro-3-with-core-i3
http://www.anandtech.com/show/8341/microsofts-surface-pro-3-core-i3-vs-core-i5-battery-life

wanted to get Cyan colour for keyboard but it's getting common now ):

                                         

Currently there's a promotion online also where students get to enjoy special rates

but got the fear of buying online... sigh

shall be bhb and send over my student details to check if i'm entitled to it MUAHHAHA

going for dinner with Meijie at 303

our childhood makan place YAY!  

IT'S NATIONAL DAY TOMORROW ~~~ HEHEHEHE

but will be going to work at 7am ):

nevermind free cab woohoo 

Still trying hard to improve my english in process...ttitititititititititi

but confirm wouldn't have radical change one 

nevermind i shall jiayous MUAHAHHAA

happy holiday everybirdie ^_^

Just had my first scream at somebody after so many years RAAR.

Forever bullying my foreign staffs, really lost my cool when he said
" You indian, I Singaporean."
and I screamed at the uncle wahahhah
so fucking ridiculous

He should even be more ashamed that a foreigner is doing things that he can't do.
A job is a job, a human still have their feelings.
Other then not wanting to do certain task, he still make trouble for foreigners who help to take up unwanted task by locals.

AND HE,

ending work early, using violence to solve problem, keep harping that he was a gangster, refuse to help others and listen orders.
so old already still play gangster -.-

Really feels that nobody that uses such resorts should be left in factory, is either he go, or we lose the team spirit .

Something I've been trying to enhance it ever since I started working. my baby :'(

AND MY BUS JUST WENT WRONG DIRECTION LOL. woot first experience.

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MUAHAHHA

JUST WENT TO STALK YUFEN'S BLOG

seems so nostalgic 

it seems like everything happened just yesterday

secondary school have the most memorable memories x3

but most of her blog post is exposing my unglam moments 

)):::::::::::::::::::::::

happy to have met her the day before ^_^

pasar malam foooooooooood

woohooooooooo

liow fall asleep and went drinking with his friends after that

):

nevermind

we can entertain ourselves MUAHAHHA 

pic for the day ~ 

pic from career day 2009

WHAT PUBERTY DID TO US MUAHAHHAH

hope she will not see this

and felicia ~ hehehe

reading somebody's blog is so much more fun

HEHEHE

x3

why hor... the photos from the past seem to have a better resolution than my samsung salaxy s4
._.

Reflection post

Sometimes i ponder whereby upon helping others, am i doing more harm than good to them.
Experienced a few scenario in the past and i really got a bit lost ~_~

Experiencing failure is actually the best way to learn new things.
There were a few times where i wanted to help others but end up doing it all myself due to time constraint.
I taught them the correct way to do it afterwards but i'm not sure if it really works...
Now looking back, i'm wondering if i'm really helping them to learn or rather, showing them that there's always somebody to cover their backside for them
If one day, the "somebody" is not there to help anymore; wouldn't it be even more devastating for them to handle ?

Been through similar cases in the past years;

Scenario 1 
GM1 did wrongly, we taught him/her, GM1 did wrongly again, we redo & taught him/her.
but GM1 doesn't change, leading to the growth of bad feelings.

Scenario 2 
GM1 did wrongly, we taught him/her, GM1 did wrongly again, we redo & taught him/her.
GM 1 said he/she understood but the assignement ended so nobody knows if it really works.

Of course there's scenario with good ending soon woo :D
Okay after typing it out i came out with a conclusion:
I'll do the best i can to help the person, but the ultimate result is depend on the individual. 
If he/she wants to help themselves, efforts will be made.
But still, if the person still didn't manage to change, i'll feel that i contributed a part in their consequences as well ):
overall feeling: STILL GUILTY

Just randomly though of this;
i will never donate to the youngster stating that they are from a children charity.
and the MINIMUM donation is $10 lol
What if the biggest sum of money an individual can donate at that point of time is $3 ?
Sum rejected ?
Why would a charity put a barrier to receiving more donations
It's easier to get 10 people to donate $1 than 1 person to donate $10 isn't it ._.


rejection for the day done. byebye!

Hellloooo ~~~

Abit qian da to say this, but i'm going back to study as a full time student in september...this way :X
Yup yup, decided that i should finish my studies first since i got a life time to pursue my career in the future
somemore now the finance burden is lifted MUAHAHHAHA
i didn't kanna 4D fyi ~~~

But before going back, i really decided that i should improve my english first >:D
Althu i've said the same thing last year as well....but this time i can de !!!
just finished reading a story book within a few days MUAHAHA achievement unlocked *level up*

caught "The Fault in Our Stars" with my ah deh earlier on
& afterwards i saw instagram that eggy & mj went to watch at the earlier slot as well
aiya !!! almost can stalk dao them  sighhhhh
~_~_~_~_~_~_~~~~~

but the movie was alright though wahahha didn't cried
BUT HOR, the couple beside me a lot of strange strange action !!!
somemore corner seat
felt dam awkward sitting beside them lollllll
on the other hand, the first 2 row of seats for NEX shaw wasn't too bad wahhaha
my neck still intact with me.

had presentation last friday with my colleagues as well
really learnt a lot of new things from everybody wahhaha.
I didn't want to go initially and wanted to give the chance to my tu di
caused i felt that i'm leaving soon and this kind of opportunity to be given to him, whom will be staying long instead.
but my boss insisted whahaha
so grateful to her
& she gave me her shoes as well HEHEHE
cause it was too big for her & she bu she de throw
& i didn't have any presentation shoes since it was a last min decision for me to go.

so thankful for everything ~~ hehehe

I did a evil thing last friday, making me feel so guilty up till now...
so i decided to do 2 good deeds per day to compensate whahaha
even if there's no good deed to do i'll buy tissue paper from elderly
this shall go on for a week >:D >:D >:D


BYEBYE!

2014

a few major changes have been made this year...which is...i quitted school woohooo

k luh not quitted, can say as deferment ? :D

currently i've started my new job as a operation coordinator at ___ ___ _____( you all slowly guess hehehe)

starting 3 months was rather bearable where all the learning takes place etc

but after the 3rd month where i'm sort of passed the "trail" period, woah the workload all like suddenly fall from the sky.

now currently it feels like i'm becoming a operation coordinator, sales coordinator for other 2 company, secretary, admin (clearing sai kang for company such as ordering stocks etc) 

yesterday i've just gotten the news that i'm in the project team as well.

sometimes i really suspecting that my boss forget that i'm only a diploma holder heh

cause got one time she told me

" diploma holder how to survive in the current society now ?!"

then in the end she put me in those not diploma role ._. ? 

but it's really a good learning experience there though whahahah i'm really absorbing alot there

Learnt how to operate a factory there as well and people management mmm

there machiam really like racial harmony yo.  where China people learns malay and malays learn chinese and indian learn hokkien. 

cool lehzzz

but on the side note, i'm looking forward in starting school again in next year January when my financial status is more stable :D

yup i'll be taking things at a slower pace now i guess ? 1 or 2 module per semester.

shall not stress myself so much anymore since...YOLO ~ xD

180days more whoops, it just feels like internship period.

and afterwards maybe i'll go back to my company and work again.

hopefully my boss supports me hehehehe

many bonds been created and i'm afraid i can't bear to leave them ):