3 more days to end of 2015 !!
Time to set new goals and reflect what i've did for 2014

Study
In 2014, i must admit i'm too chiong for studies till i going @_@
i don't know why also LOL
My whole life i never so chiong before
but once i step into uni, i keep having the urge to score for distinction.
Really dk what's wrong with me -_-
i ended up quitting school to work.
BUT the stress doesn't play a majority role in my decision
it's other factors which.... inconvenient to say here hehehe for you to guess -winks
and i regretted this decision that i've made.
I've learnt to relax myself afterwards and think for myself more.

Work
Thanks to my part time job, i've secured a full time position in another company opened by my boss :D
Really appreciate it as it was my first office job in my life LOL
I learnt a lot, really a lot
however, suffered a lot too.  (no pain no gain right? :D)
Initially i entered the office with only a minor role
but i carried my burning flame of striving for distinction in school to work.
i did everything as fast and perfect as i can.
because i can't understand "work is never ending in office"
but slowly, i started to take roles that are not my job scope
from a minor role, to taking care of the whole factory (+ all schedulings), doing secretarial roles, taking up HR basic task,  coordinating with sales staffs, sales coordinator for another sister company, participating in meetings and meetup with clients.
HOWEVER
I brought this up myself, cause i'll go around asking if anybody needs help when my task is done.
maybe that's why they feel my role quite slack and start piling up things for me :X

That's when my body starts to break down, severely.
i fell sick at least once every month. (most of them are actually high fever)
and i still went back to work cause somethings have to be passed down.
i do not have any assistants.
Slimmed down dam vigorously till now i can't get fat wtf rofl.
but i',m happy cause...
by the 3rd month, i have the support of all 20+ factory & logistic workers
my hard work paid off YAY !
my logistic skills level up to0o0o0o ~

The feeling of quitting only comes when they hired an executive (which suppose to be my superior)
but end up i have to guide him in every single thing and always clear the mess for him.
that's when i felt i'm truly being EATEN
this goes on for a period of time
& i left after the company 6th month woohoo.

But from then on,
I become a follower than someone with her own opinions.
i hate this zz i feel lost 90% of the time.
have being trying to put in effort and think logically of serious issues but something is just blocking it
I miss the feeling where i am able to make people laugh.

BACK TO STUDY LOL
Lucky i only defer my studies, not quit LOL
thanks to the staff who told me about the deferment system.
and yup, i found ways to relax myself more (:
& i only strive distinction for 1 subject
because that's the only events module i have T_T
the rest, pass can liao ~


GOALS FOR 2015
1) Be myself more, have my own opinion and better confidence,
Being a follower is causing me to lose that little bit of confidence i have
I MUST OVERCOME !!
2) Nurse my health back
The damage to my health is permanent since then.
even the stupid dust can cause me high fever.
body feeling weak ALL THE TIMES -_-
3) Finish up degree in a comfortable way 
4) Everybody be happy x3


2014 had been a year where i gained and lost a lot.
can't wait for it to end wooo.


Spending my last 3 days of 2014 nursing my health back.
kanna fever again for nothing after KXG meeting
-_-