when happiness goes over sadness wahaha

today started off tiredly D;
cause only have less then 6 hours of sleep
something happen which sinked me in into deep thoughts again
but the meetup with the girls at night cheered me up ^_^
BUT SUAY SUAY MY PHONE DIED AT NIGHT
no pictures !*@&^#@!
the only options is to kope from their blogs le hehehe...

today my food menu very fong fu.

sugarloaf main course + desserts
gotten free soup from mensa western aunty as there's not enough soup to sell as a bowl
wahahha the aunty dam good.
at night went to timbre
spent my whole week savings there LOL
the only regret is the lychee martini,
was hoping for some sweet sweet drinks, end up eeyer LOL
bu hao he de.

scroll around, had rocher tauhuey wakaka
brought egg tarts home for tomorrow breakfast ~


i don't like to compare this type of stuffs, but really, just because some people did not voice out
does not mean that they are not experiencing the same thing which others are undergoing it.
i not sure what you really meant,
but the feeling of comparison is so strong the moment you said that sentence.

not sure if i took it too personally, but it just felt so dreadful to go for training tomorrow.
everybody only manage to see that small black dot in the white paper.
feel so sad so much now :[

went to zhit house to do work just now :D

at bus stop going home :D

& visit tyki at the same time ^_^

(koped from zhit's blog) 

& didn't go for training today as i could not finish my work );

only managed to finsihed it not long ago.. 

finally packed finsih my things..time to sleep yo.

tomorrow 9am lessons.

whole day spent on projects & some times spent with zhit <3 

this tattoo looks dam nicee

always likes dandelion tattoos wahahahha

but papa mama confirm don allow.

went to check on UV ones cause it is not visible but realise the tattoo will be in blood colour when finished

takes a few weeks before  it is gone.

so no point LOL, also will get slaughtered.

maybe when i get older.. wahahhaa

project todayy & off day tomorrow ^_^

initial plan was to go cdac at night

end up fell asleep & woke up too late 

so... stay at home instead ;x

shall rest today, start doing work tomorrow wahahahaa

byebyeeee xD

idiot zhehao keep hacking my account !! grrrrrrrr

busy daysss
forgot what i did already actually LOL
only remember we went to support the fusion percussion & chungcheng high 24 festive drums for Drumzout after training

on bus with vivian ~

rushed off after seeing the 2nd round of chung cheng performances.

helped the guy to carry the gu jia back to the holding area also :D

he jialat, one person need keep & move back so many gu jias

so lent my round hand wahahha

saw ying's ex bf with his new gf

was thinking why the guy like so suspicious

tried to peek him a few times but he just keep his head low all the way during the times i ghey ghey turn back  LOL.

really is no use haiss

rushed to derek bd :D

reached home the next morning then realised we should have take a pic of the old cdac peeps ):

childhood friends somemore nan de everybody around

gahhh most of us busy playing T_T

drank abit & mj though i drunk LOL

not drunk, just too tired only ^_^

cabbed back to sengkang the next day

& managed to catch jiamin's performance :D

lack of sleep ahhhh lack of sleep.

 dam tired ever since school started T_T

OHYEAHHH I ATTENDED THE CCA AWARD CEREMONY 2012 TOO 22JUNE ;D

muahahha NIGHTS

met hh for dining task yesteday
went to sign contract & collect pay
go back to school to catch "Ding Tao" with salvos
met yufen felicia jason yesterday for supper
wanted stay till late, but my pa call me & disbelieve me
i admit i lied but the fear of facing all the shyt..
i went home early
feel so bad to jason & yufen
sorry );

so tired. i wan sleep sooon
projects FNB END SOON !!!!
& still gt dpd indiavidual haven really start
omggggggggg

back to Klang for papa side cousins wedding :D 

they say her nose and eyes look like mine when im young hehehe

that day de weather really is killer LOL.

zoom zoom fast eye make up by my cousin's friend.

& pei en ^_^

the toy that was given by my papa 10 years ago.

got one more white colour de hehe, used to hug it sometimes before i sleep

my cousin's daughter still hug it till now :B

<3<3<3 

food that i helped in preparing wahaha

hehhe it was fun going back again

although its been..11 years LOL.

felt more comfortable there as compared to my mama side of relative.

like, i can be myself :B

don't know why my mama don like them ): she still forbid me to go to my aunt foster daughter wedding in oct !*@&^#!

always feel judged by my mama sides cause of the selfish act my mother did to her sister in the past years ):

BUT IM NOT MY MOTHER !! D:<

feel so dam tired and blur now after all the projects.
don't know what i doing. keep forgetting alot of things
& think i might deleted the wrong pic while deleting zinc pic of me at her phone ._.
cause she almost saw it liao so i fast fast chop chop
hope didn't delete anything ):

also forgotten that i took marcus unglam pic using jh's phone
then i still dare to comment that he deleted it cause he's the only one who have a hold to my phone after that.
so guilty now ):

how to sleep, with so many guilty.

abcedfuguuuuuuuqrstuvwxyz

i know you can't wait to leave this family
but you just left the family like that, with 2 parents quarreling everytime.
they are both reaching their geng nian qi also leh.
you can't just leave it to me to face all this problem alone.

how many times i have to reach home early
how many times i can't go out cause im worried about their quarrel
how many times i faced the same single shit every time i reach home

& nice, it's father day yesterday and i heard you called pa & said your at ikea.
THEN DON'T KNOW HOW TO COME HOME ONE MEH.
pa called you the minute we reached singapore in early afternoon.
you don't know how to auto abit to come home ?
27 direct bus don't know how to take, stay there & celebrate it with your wife father instead of your own.
you should see the expression in their face when everytime they tell me "kor kor gang gang you hui lai"

you have 2 off on sundays from what i see.
why only VISIT papa and mama when your gf family is at compass point shopping ?
why not come back on sat night or sunday morning to stay.
i not sure what you trying to tell us, but it just give me the feeling that you jumped over there cause the grass there is greener.
leaving me to deal with all this shit.
yes, your 28 this year & need your freedom
I NEED MINE ALSO DUDE -.-
i can't always accompany papa and mama at home cause im having my own commitment.
when ever i stay out late, papa will go drinking, leaving mama at home.
she having a more serious geng nian qi now, their quarrel sometimes can get so jialat that i so scare she got depression.
please, your my brother.
why are you much more selfish than all my friends.

they having their geng nian qi already.
come home and stay will you ?
i don't want to face this alone.

you may call me and scold me again if you saw this.
but, i don't care.


i want to save myself from all this shit as much as how dearly you wish to break yourself off from here.